Dying beams filter’d by translucent blinds,
Setting dust particles in this room to faintly glowing.
The clocks here are at a silent standstill,
Standing vigil over this ruined abode.
The ash in the fireplace,
Where fires beyond count used to blaze
Sully the moth-eaten rug at it’s edge.
A haze of wear upon time-worn wealth.
I remember this table,
We used to bind our pride to it,
Sacrificing it to unpredictable gods
For sinful riches and faint happiness.
This cross, upon which we crucified our humanity,
Nailing it to rose-red wood with nails of cold steel.
Steel, so they will not rust. Will not corrode,
Will not disappear into Time like so many other things.
So many memories. They overflow,
Drowning me in their over-enthusiastic embrace,
Smothering me. The walls they chafe me,
Cutting me anew with the failures of such a distant past.
I near-flee to the door.
Intricate runes and patterns carved mercilessly
Into the oaken body of a long dead tree.
Dust and termite tracks tickle it’s once gleaming bodice.
Outside, on the other side,
Winter burns it’s mark into the world.
Blowing up clouds of powder’d snow in drafts,
Driving the little people back into their hovels.
But the memories. The recollections.
The upsurge of unwanted emotions.
Gods! How they torture a soul,
How they drive the sanity from my skull.
Turning, wheeling on the spot.
Ghosts of faces, ghastly hands that grasp me cold.
Colder than the blizzard on the other side.
Whispers, muttered invocations, reminders.
I turn. And keep turning.
Spinning all into a merging of colors,
Sickening me.
Oh pray, Darkness take me.