to Shoes : Awesome!! it has a name! XD do you learn much bout it?
Hmm. Currently realizing how much it sucks to have a bruised heart and nothing to really distract you from it. Hell the coming week’s going to really be painful. No active duty. Just… rubbish the whole way. WOW.
I’m pretty fucked. =/
Writing will help. Yeah. And i’m bringing my guitar in. Going to sing the blues and all the emo-ass-songs.
How ah. seriously. I think i’m going to ask OC if i can run. At least. That would be… decently distracting. Or i could just get Ben to walk around in the nude. …
Oh fuck no.
Was supposed to have a stayover at Dan’s place today! =( got cancelled from low attendance…. argh. Killjoy. Was really looking forward to it. My weekends are pretty dull. Not much company. Lucky thing Fan Zhi’s still around and all. Spent about 2 hours with him playing the guitar and Halo-ing. Awesome game…. Want to try out ODST!! 😀
I hope you readers notice my attempts at remaining positive. The only reason this post isn’t turning into a pathetic description of self-failure and rantings on possible suicide at an early age is ’cause i don’t feel like subjecting your minds to it. Be appreciative. XD
Just spent about 30 minutes trying to fit a nice little poem (a pretty positive one, mind) into facebook’s wall thingy, and accidentally pressed backspace. =.= shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit man. Now i’m so…. wasted. Urgh.
I think i’m going to cycle tommorrow. =/ Far away again. It’s my little escape from stuff around me. Sometimes, i just need to get away. Escapism. The only way to be a part of something as big and complex as modern society, is to continually and unceasingly try to be apart from it. =/
Hell, all’s an ironic interplay of parody and contradiction in my pretty self-complicating/destructive life.
My biography, shall be epic.
[EPIC FAILURE! XDD AHAHAHHAA]
Before i get out of here, just realised that i draw creative energy from negative emotions. o.O maybe i can try doing that with positive emotions?
…
Long shot. But worth a try. =/