Why’re you always processing something? o.O Why’s there always something to process? EXACTLY what the hell causes this unnecessary lag?
this is part of the questioning i’ve been giving my laptop for a while now.
Wonderful. Loads of things to unsettle my mind now. Work. Mental Typhoons. Work. The future. And… oh yeah. This constant desire to slide something thin, metallic and sharp between my ribs. Do a little bit of damage. Hell. It can’t possibly hurt more than it hurts now, can it?
Right now just.. brimming with the negative. Really. Overflowing and shit. Feeling my worst. It hurts so bad. And that god damned song. Oh my fucking god i can’t believe i practiced that fucking song so hard. All the heart.
Nothing’s certain. But.. something’s there. Or not, if you get my bleeding drift.
I just need to deal with it. I just need to deal with it. Mentally and.. otherwise. I can do it. I know i can.
Shit. I’m stretched out now.
I can’t speak.
Silenced.
The song my soul sang,
Forcefully ended.
The sound of strings in the dark
Echoes in memory.
The melancholy leaves it’s mark
In an oubliette few flee.
I know no meaning,
I know no lies.
My eyes aren’t seeing
The midnight spies.
What I deemed Truth,
I now burn.
I’ve beaten out Love’s brittle Tooth,
And for that i am spurn’d.
In bitterness i curdle.
In loneliness i decay.
I’ve tripped over this last hurdle,
And now can only say,
That i would still have loved you anyway.