Spent a few hours at Shawn’s place yesterday.
Please study man.
Met James after that at Thompson for a drink (and wedges! :D). Lol. Yes. The Long Island Tea at Liquid Kitchen was overpriced. o.O But ah heck. ERDINGER! Whoo.. beer tastes best in the company of friend(s). HAHAHA.
Now waiting for jian to come by. Watching Taken while waiting. :DD Heh. Good movie. Lol. I have this habit of re-watching (and re-watching and re-watching) old movies, or movies i’ve seen before. Can’t really help it. If it’s good, it’s good ya know? lol.
Looks like it’s going to rain. 🙂 this will make the ride even better! hahaa. Riding in the rain.. ah… haven’t done that in a long time. Hahaha. I miss being in the rain. =/ army training kind of stops the moment they see overly dark clouds or… it starts drizzling or something. I dunno. Maybe men in green have an inherent fear of water. XD (nah that’s not true. If not all armies would be defeated by merely dropping water from the sky via C130s or something. o.O now how pathetic would that be?)
Cycling later again. A bit addicted to it. hahaha…
I am so tempted to tap into anger and negative energy once in a while. =/ It’s always floating around, this temptation. I mean….. hell. Anyone here watched Star Wars? (except you la jian.)
It’s so… seductive. The focus of power and ability. The heightened sense of things. All of a sudden, your surroundings, your environment and the people in it… become so… malleable. So… fragile. So… destructible. And when i get angry, i can see a lot more than usual. It’s like……… emotions become visible. Intentions become clear and transparent. And i can see what makes you break. Be it word or action. All i need to do is put the required amount of energy or effort into making it a reality.
Control.
Control’s the word.
And i know the truth of the matter concerning the side effects.
urgh..
But still. tempting. =/
Such a depressing topic!
Yes it is.
sometimes, i have random conversations with myself. No… i don’t think it’s wrong. No. neither do i think it abnormal to talk to yourself. It’s a perfectly NORMAL and common hobby. Or… activity. Whatever you might want to call it.
ME 1: you’re just being stupid la. Acting clever.
ME 2: piss off eh. it’s my post. or… yours. ours? …
ME 1: psh. retard.
ME 2: …
cough.
right. Notice. Haven’t been a post about… well.. her.. in a while. No. I’m not going to start. I think the memories of her have graduated to being a totally private thing. I also think i’ve come to an understanding of the situation and have found a sense of balance i can, possibly live with for now, if not, then for the rest of my short life.
…
yes. That’s what it’s about.
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yepp. thats the way to go.
…
Ahhhhh who the fuck am i kidding.
I’m a wreck. … but i’m not an EMO wreck. 😀
Ah… the silver lining… is… tinted with… the sprouts of alien carrots?!
An invasion is on it’s way.
Right. so fifa 09 doesn’t seem to be working on my psp. Trying to get another game. Lol. Rockband is good… really good.. problem. Headache. BAD ASS headache.
I need.. a mental and emotional respite. hmmm..